Weighty Wendesday!

Weight 317.0  -.9 lbs
Neck 16"  same 
Bust 43.5"  +.5" 
Waist 48"  same 
Hips 58"  -.25" 
Arm 20"  same 
Thigh 32"  same
Calf 21"  same

Total weight loss .9 pounds
Total inches -.25"

Since Start May 6th (new on 1st Wed of the month I will do a from beginning and a from month)
-.4 pounds
-6 inches

Need to work on pounds but 6" is pretty nice to see!

Weighty Wendesday!

Short and sweet because Flabby has some things to do today...laundry, child time and returning raspberries.  I bought them yesterday, brought them home and one is moldy!  Eww!  Lesson learned to check my berries!

Weight 317.9 which is a loss of... .5 lbs

Neck 16...same
Bust 43.5... -.5"
Waist 48... -.5"
Hips 58.75... -.25"
Arm 20... -1"
Thigh 32... -1"
Calf 21... same

So that's a total of .5 lbs and 3.25" which is AWESOME and suprising because Mother Nature and her gift of bloat arrived a few days ago!  WOO!

Motivation.

Do you ever wonder why we lose motivation?  Is it that things are too hard?  Unsupportive spouse?  Lazy?  There are lots of things that make the weight loss journey long and difficult but the goal is not too give up.  I have been heavy most of my life and I can easily say that what has worked against me is self sabatauge.  I will inevitably make myself fail so that I can prove I couldn't do it.  In my heart I know that I can but it's going to be a slow, sometimes seemingly unrewarding process but it will be worth it in the end.  My brain says who cares whether you are fat or skinny?  Your husband can't keep his hands of of you and you love it.  Yes I do love that my husband can't keep his hands of me BUT I do not love it.  I feel gross, fat and disgusting somedays.  If I'm a little bloated (like today, thank YOU mother nature for bestowing gifts) I will get depressed.  Before you go all 'oh I'm sure your pretty'...I am.  However, lately I have been having more and more ugly days.  More and more I notice the extra weight.  More and more I see myself becoming a big ole fatty and you know what it makes me want to do?  Find a damn cookie and eat it, then find more.  I am really working hard on not being an emotional eater and doing what needs to be done.  Sometimes it's difficult because it's such a natural thing for me to do.  Bad day...ice cream.  Good day..pasta.  After a week of 'good eating' I would give myself a 'treat' usually outdoing all of the work I had done.  That was the old me. 

The new me says...I WILL do this.  I will lose weight and live a 'normal' lifestyle.
The old me would say...who's going to know if you cheat? 
The new me says...I will know and I don't want to feel guilty anymore.
The old me used to feel guilty for eating, that since I was already so large I didn't need anymore food.
The new me will eat when hungry and eat things that are good for my body.

My next post will be weigh in number 3 and then I think I will do a post about what life is like as an overweight person.  People who have never been even a little weight do not understand.
The old me can go get bent while the new me finds her way out!

#2

Maybe we should just start to make this Thursday weigh in! 

Sorry the posts are sparse, I write another blog and there is a lot going on over there with Mission Monkey and Daffys sister and I'm just really more focused on that.

I worked out once this week, I feel like I failed myself but I have been flat out exhausted between baby, husband, family and other things I haven't found the time.  I realize that now that I'm a parent that will happen a lot more but I really need to focus on taking even 15 minutes a day for myself to work out.  Even 15 minutes is 15 minutes.

The number is:
318.4 which is...a loss of .4 lbs
neck 16  -.5"
bust 43.5  -.5"
waist 48.5  +.5"
hips 59  same
arm 21  same
thigh 33  same
calf 21  same

Total -.4lbs and 1"

Slow but I was ok since I barely worked out and have been stressed! Woo!

First Official Weigh In

First of all HELLLLLOOO my 3 followers!!  I'm so glad to have you on this journey with me!  I was supposed to post this yesterday but my husband was off and I just lost track of time!

I have been slacking on my fitness pal only because I have been super busy but I'm not as much now so hopefully I will remember, the thing is such a great tool!  This won't be long because my baby just woke up BUT I will post more tonight or tomorrow.

Weight 318.8  that would be a + of 1.4lbs
Neck 16.5  +.5"...this one I don't really understand
Bust  44 (I measured wrong last week haha)
Waist 48  -1"
Hips 59  -1"
Arm  21  same
Thigh  33  same
Calf  21  -.5"

So I gained 1.4lbs but lost 2" so I'm pleased!

More tomorrow, gotta feed the kid!